It's My Life

So much has happened since i last wrote a few weeks ago. Where to start is the question? Hmmmm, lets start with the fact that my beautiful, wonderful, amazing, lovable, and awesome sister-n-law Amber is due with my future niece or nephew on July 2nd. So I'm going to be an auntie. I am super excited XD Hopefully my family and I can go out to Casper, Wyoming when my sister has her baby :) I would love to meet my nephew or niece for the first time, and hold them and all the fun stuff that goes with that. Beware Auntie Brittany will have fun shopping and spoiling this child XD :P :)

The next thing that has happened: is I am all set for college. I start on January 10th :) That is a relief off my shoulders, and my whole tuition plus books are all payed for by my grants. It is an amazing feeling :) What college student doesn't love the idea of not having to take out a loan, lol.

At the end of this month, i officially have been working at Famous Daves for four months. How i love that job, and how all the employee's are like one big family :) Yesterday I got voted Hostess of the month (Aka Employee of the month). We have three categories for Employee of the Month. The three are for: Cook, Server & Host. We get our picture taken, and then hung on our wall :) I was speechless when they called my name. It was an amazing feeling :)

I can't believe that in 5 days is Christmas Eve. Where has the time flown? That is just beyond crazy. I finally just got all my Christmas shopping done.  What has me even more baffled, is that in 19 days is my 20th birthday X0 *jaw drops* it is so weird to think I won't be a teenager anymore, i seriously feel like i just turned 18 the other day. lol....so ya a lot has happened :) I wanna wish you guys a Merry Christmas and a Happy  New Year :) Hope your Christmas is a wonderful and amazing time to hang with your family and friends.

Love,
    Mbb

Part 2 of Girls Night Out

Girl's Night Out

Here are some wonderful pictures that my friend Bridget took XD. We had a blast, and it was exactly what i needed.. There will be more coming, so i will update when i get them :)

Life

    Im done with chasing boys, getting my hurt broken, getting lied to, and listening to their pretty rehearsed lines which mean nothing to them. They say all the right things, and i am stupid enough to believe it. When is it all going to stop? When am i going to find the one guy who likes me for me, and won't lie to me, or say things just so i would go out with them? :/ So how do i get over all this, I'm going out tomorrow night with my girlie's. We are getting dressed up, taking photos, going out to eat, catching up and going to see Harry Potter 7. I need it, soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo badly. I am going to forget all the hurt, and for one night not think about the stuff im going thru, or getting hurt by men. 

   Now that im done with that note, I hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving. I had a wonderful night with my family. I went over to my aunt and uncles house. I hung with my cousins all night while the adults talked. My cousin Kurt was in from Virgina Beach, Virgina. I haven't seen him in a year, so it was great to catch up. My cousins and i r the ones to play the wii, laugh until we cry, have awkward conversations and just are dorky :P I am thankful for my brother, my sisters: Amber, Megs, Chelsey, and Kaitlyn. I am thankful for my parents, Mary and Rory. I am thankful for my college friends, adopted siblings, friends from home and the friends i've had for years. 

    My sister Amber went to the clinic about two weeks ago and got her first ultrasound of her baby at 3 months pregnant. I got sent the video of that, and i cried my eyes out in happiness. This is actually happening. I am going to be an auntie around May or June. Oh how i can't wait to spoil my future neice or nephew. Hopefully after she has the baby god will allow me to move down there so i can be in the baby's life and go to school down there. We will see what God's will is, and where he wants me.

New Fave Song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMgro4APOgw

When It Rains, It Pours

Just found a few great quotes today that just hit me big time. Saw these and thought I would share them all with you :)

"There's always a little truth behind every "Just kidding" a little
knowledge behind every "I don't know" a little emotion behind every "I
don't care" and a little pain behind every "It's okay"

 "Being strong is important: but knowing who you can count on is equally important" 

 “You can shine, no matter what you're made of.”

 “Hey you. Yes you. The one reading this. Think you're too fat? Too skinny? What about too tall, short, ugly, worthless, or anything else along those lines? Well guess what. I think you all are beautiful. I think you all deserve to wake up with a smile on your face, and go to bed with a smile on your face. You all deserve happiness. Screw the boy that broke your heart, and fuck the girl that messed with your feelings. Forget about your parents, and what they say to you. Don't worry about them. Think about your future. How nice it's going to be in 20 years from now, to be laying in a bed with the one you love, and just knowing that you're the one that the other one wants to be with forever. Think about all the success you're going to do, and how many smiles you're going to put on someones face. Think about your future kids, and grand-children. Think about what you are going to do with your life. In 20 years from now, everything that is happening now, won't matter at all. You might not remember anything that is happening right now. If you think you have it bad, think about all the things you have in life. Have a roof over your head? Yes, well someone else in this world doesn't. Have clothes on your back? Yeah, well someone else in this world doesn't. You have your friends? There's someone else in the world that doesn't. You still have your life, you have your heart, your eyes, your ears, your legs, your feet, your arms, your hands, and most importantly, you have someone that is going to love you for who you are. You may not know them now, and you may not think that they do,but they do. And they will give up anything, just to be with you. Now,smile because you're always going to have it better than someone else out there. Don't frown because something happened, that isn't going to matter later in life.”

“Have faith in your dreams and someday your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep believing,the dream that you wish will come true.” 

Best Trip Ever

I had the best trip ever when last week I was visiting my brother, sis n law, megs, mary and rory in Casper, Wyoming. It felt like my brother and i hadn't been apart these last 12 years. I went and saw some historic stuff, got a tour of the town, saw 1 of the 7 wonders of casper, and even got my belly button pierced. I got the best news the morning I left. My sister Amber and my brother are going to have a baby. They are due in June :) I am beyond happy for them, and I can't wait to be an auntie XD I loved it so much out there i am thinking about next year going to college out there.

Here are some photos for you to enjoy.

Megs and Me

Tony and Me

Beautiful Scenery Shot

Me at Fort Caspar

Tony being a dork lol

Megs

Right to Left: Megs, Mary, Me, and Amber

Mountain Shot on the way to the Salt Lake City Airport

Theme Song

Today I realized that moving on is hard but it's worth it....It is for the better, and it helps a lot. I am figuring out me as a person, and realize that I am an independent, confident women who loves to be her self. I have a job, family and friends who love me, and most of all God is always there for me no matter if the situation is good or bad. My theme song is: I Look So Good by Jessie James. Here are the lyrics.

Hey boy I would of thought that when you left me
I'd be broken with my confidence gone.. so bummed..
Hey boy I would of thought that when you said that you don't want me
I'd feel ugly n sense something was wrong
Standing in front of the mirror.. my skin's never been clearer
My smile's never been brighter

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

Hey I'd never would of thought that when you left me
I'd feel sexy n so good in my skin again
And I'd never would of known that
I'd be dreamin' so much better without you in my head
Standing in front of the mirror.. my clothes never fit better
My life's never been brighter

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you

Now baby my body's lookin' better than before
Ain't bitin' my nails since you walked out of that door
I realized now I deserve so much more than what you give
Than what you give (than what you give..)

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since you said "that we're through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good ,I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you 


This song helps me with my confidence, lets me know it's ok to move on and feel good about yourself.


In 6 days I fly out to Casper, Wyoming to see my brother, my sis n law, megan, mary and rory....I am so excited. I haven't seen my brother or his mom mary in 12 years so it will be a big family reunion. I am meeting my sis n law, meg and rory for the first time. XD I know as soon as i step into casper, wyoming airport i will be running to the luggage pick up and tackling my brother...this is one of my biggest dreams that i have wanted to complete since i was a lil girl, and now i am finally completing it. Right now in time, i feel like i am going to wake up from a dream and realize that im not going down....it will feel more real to me the moment i step on that plane.


I am taking lots of pics on my vacation, and I can't wait to post them so everyone can see XD


      Love,
          MBB

Dreams Really Do Come True

In 12 days I fly out to Casper, Wyoming to see my brother who I haven't seen in 12 years, meet my sis n law Amber, Megan and hang with the rest of my brothers family...I am so excited, scared, nervous and worried, but happy at the same time. I don't think I have ever felt so many emotions at once. I am excited because in the last 12 years it has been an on going dream that I would be able to fly out and see my brother again, and God has granted me that dream. I am nervous because I am actually meeting my sis n law, and Megan that I have heard so much about. I know I txt/fb them all the time but this time it is meeting them in person. For some reason I have a fear of them not liking me or i won't fit in.

I am probably going to cry my eyes out when I see my brother...i all ready let him know im tackling him the minute I see him.lol....so aka Brother Beware :P  Just sitting here typing, made me think of a memory of when my brother and I were younger. He would fly up here to see my mom, our dad and I as well as my sisters when they were born. This memory is when our dad and I sat in the airport waiting for my brother's flight to land...i remember being nervous cause it was the first time i was meeting him, but i was so excited...I remember seeing him for the first time, thinking he was awesome and I couldn't wait to get to know him more.
Anthony Daine Prothero...I love you so much, and I am proud of you...yes things have not been easy, but God has turned your life around, brought you to him, and through all the hardships and life you are growing...You are an amazing person. I am lucky to have you as my brother. Even though we don't live close to each other, you still mean the world to me. My dreams are starting to come true. XD

Some songs that are helping with everything/defining life right now are:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Po3k6sPHeX0&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Uw8mIcQJn8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMa-om8EeDI

God's Beautiful Creation

God is working in awesome ways....i can't describe it other than that...even though hard things may come he is always there, and he loves me for who I am and will never leave me. I am his beautiful and unique creation. There is no one else like me...he made me to be funny, caring, thoughtful, to love kids, to be myself, to have flaws and even be grumpy some times. He made me to be 5'7, hazel eyes, dark brown hair, a natural klutz...He made me to be strong at times.

At times I feel like all i want to do is stay in the sorrows, but he whispers into my ear that everything will be all right, I need to give it to him, he never gives me more than I can handle, and that he has something better for me. Something that is perfect and his plan. He doesn't make any mistakes....everything he makes is beautiful, and original.

Proverbs 31:30 -
 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; 
       but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

1 Peter 3:4 - Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight

Romans 8:39 - neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Psalm 8:3-9 - When I consider your heavens, 

       the work of your fingers,
       the moon and the stars,
       which you have set in place,
 ⁴ what is man that you are mindful of him,
       the son of man that you care for him?
 ⁵ You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings ^[a]
       and crowned him with glory and honor.
 ⁶ You made him ruler over the works of your hands;
       you put everything under his feet:
 ⁷ all flocks and herds,
       and the beasts of the field,
 ⁸ the birds of the air,
       and the fish of the sea,
       all that swim the paths of the seas.
 ⁹ O LORD, our Lord,
       how majestic is your name in all the earth!

Being a kid was easy!!!

Sometimes I wish I was a kid, because being an adult sucks sometimes. As a kid you didn't have to worry about love, bills, work, college, etc...Being a kid you got it easy. Don't get me wrong there are awesome benefits of being an adult. Like: driving, making money, making your own decisions, etc. Its just right now in life i feel like i have two lives. I feel like around work, friends, and family that I have to act like nothing is wrong, and that i can handle anything. When I'm by myself...all i can do is think about stuff that makes my heartbreak, stuff that i wish i didn't have to say goodbye to.

Right now my big prayer is to just be myself in all situations, give it up to god and let him handle it and that i wouldn't dwell on it 24/7. A bible verse that has been helping me out is: Philippians 4:13. "I can do all things through him who strengthens me." I am still human, so i do stumble and fall more than i remember it. Anyways enough with the ranting, I know I have not written in here for a long time, but i've been super busy. I started working at Famous Daves last week as a hostess. I love it there.

By all four of my managers, i have been told they like me, i'm doing well, learning fast, do well under pressure. I also got told by my main general yesterday that in a few months there won't be an empty seat in the house thanks to me being the hostess. It made my day...i'm glad im doing well there. I have learned to answer the phones, do to-go orders, do the expo's (getting the meals ready for the waitress after the cooks are done with it), bus tables, get drinks for the tables when the server is ready, and well host XD Besides that, a few weeks ago i found out i got into Century Community College, and I will be starting that in January. So there are a bunch of blessings in the midst of stuff im going through. God is good :)

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Thoughts

I never knew that you could get the answers you were looking for, but end up with more unanswered questions...It only made me more confused then I was. These are questions that in time I really would like answered, but I need to wait for God to show me when they will be answered. One thing I have learned this year is that I need to literally give everything to God, and in his timing he will answer. I have also learned that God's plan is a 100% better than the one I imagined for myself.

Philippians 4:4-7 has been a very good verse that has been a huge help. "Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. 5 Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; 6 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through him who strengthens me."

These two verses just remind me that i need to thank God for the good and bad in life, give everything up to him, and he never gives me more than I can handle. Also that he is always there no matter where I am, what I go through. He is the best father, a girl can ask for....even if she doesnt always remember that.



Love,
       MBB

My weekend

Had a wonderful weekend even though parts of it were confusing and emotional. I hung with another friend, as well my groupies from NWC and than ending the weekend with my bestie :)  I have missed them so much. We went on a historical museum boat in Excelsior, Mn on sunday and than went out to dinner. Our friend adam is the captain, so we had fun on there. I also spent the night, so it was plenty of time to catch up. It was full of fun, laughs, learning how to properly dance in the car ;), blaring songs in the car ride back to the dorm hall...I also bumped into friends i hadnt seen in forever, and I got the biggest hugs. I didnt think I would be that missed...it was a great feeling.

I also had a lot of time to think about things this weekend. I had to ponder some things that are going on in my life. It's good things but its also complicated at the same time, and there are diff things involved with it. God was faithful though an answered some of that pondering on Monday morning. :) God is amazing like that. Even blessed me with a job interview at Famous Daves that I had today, and that went wonderfully. The manager said i was a strong candidate for the job but if I dont hear back by next week i know I didnt get the job, so please pray. I really need a job, and I am really hoping it is working there...Enjoy some photos from the boat ride on sunday.

My roomie from last yr: Court and Me :)

Some Thoughts

Lake Michigan

So this is our last day here, tomorrow we leave bright and early and head back home :) I am looking forward to it, i have been gone the last three weeks. Time up here as been great, fun, stressful, too much time to think about things. As much as I think about thinks I am realizing that i have to pray constantly about it, in time God will show me his plan for it, and I have to remember things will get solved in time.

My sisters and Me

I just found out that I didnt get into North Central...which was a huge disappointment, cause that is the one i really wanted to be in. I am still waiting to here back from the community college, but i need to find a job asap to pay for everything. Please pray that God would show me what to do because I have been so overwhelmed and stressed out with everything at me.

I am going to miss it up here. Its peaceful, quiet, time to think, beautiful, and i have some fun memories up here when i hung with my friend from college, we even called our other friend on skype and talked to the person for three hours :) It was tons of fun. I am looking forward to going back though cause a week from tomorrow my college friends are having an all day get together and i was invitied so i get to see all of them. I have missed each and everyone of them...i totally bringing my camera next week when we hang :)

One of my big worries with not going back to NWC, was that I would lose all my wonderful friends i made this last year when I was there. Talking to one friend, they let me know just because i am not going to be there doesn't mean i'm not still part of our group. It made my day, and made me realize that these friends I have made, are going to be my friends for life. I don't know what I would do without them. They are awesome, crazy, fun, sweet and just themselves and most of all they are real and on fire for Jesus XD

Anyways this blog was just a bunch of randomness that has been going thru my head with a bunch of other things that i dont want to type out....Stillwater i'm coming back home :)

Photos from today

Went to Lake Michigan, An Energy Plant, and a World War 2 Submarine museum. These are the pics from today. Tomorrow going into Green Bay and hanging with my friend....so excited XD

Arrival

So yesterday my sisters and I left with my grandparents and took off to come to Green Bay, Wi area...we left at 10am and didnt get up here till 5:30pm....Longest day of my life...it felt like the boredom monsters were attacking...lol. It felt great to get sleep last night, i had about 10 1/2 hours XD The night before I only had three, and couldnt fall a sleep in the car on the way here, so last night was amazing lol. We are staying at Foxhill Resort which is 15 miles south of Green Bay and 5 miles from Lake Michigan I guess (which we are going to visit one of the days I am up here)....Right now it is beautiful and sunny out here. I believe it is around 70 degrees out. I am sitting by the outside pool, and just soaking up some sun....fun stuff. Tomorrow or Wednesday I am connecting with my wonderful friend Sarah, and we will be going to the amusement park in Green Bay :) That will be tons of fun, and it will be fun to see her. I miiiiiiiiiiiiiiissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss her so much. I only have internet when I am near the pool so I will try to get on when I can and update you guys withwhat is going and add some photos from this vacation :)

Love,
    MBB

Life :)

So this is my first time doing a post on here....so excited to get this started. :) XD So life is stressful. A year ago everything was perfect, and now i have no clue where I am going to college, have all sorts of things coming at me, and hoping everything becomes clear soon. I am drawing close to God during all of this, which is a good, perfect and amazing thing. Going to church, reading the bible, and being in a bible study has been a big help this summer.

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight."

Philippians 4:4-7 "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard  your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

These two bible verses have been very helpful this summer, and they have been a great reminder that I need to give it up to God. He knows the best path for me, and in time he will show that to me. I also am learning patience, even though its been a struggle this summer i am learning it.

These last two weeks, and this coming week are a vacation for me. I have been babysitting my two buddies these last two weeks. That has been priceless, fun, cute, and we just bond even closer than we were. This coming week I am heading to Green Bay, Wisconsin with my sisters Chelsey and Katie along with my grandparents. We will be there a full week. I get to see one of my dear friends from college, go swim in Lake Michgian, go to an amusement park, amongst other things :) I am looking forward to it.  I will update as much as I can so you guys know how things are going.

Love,
    MBB