Hardest Moments!

Sunday October 19th, 2014 I got the worse news ever. My amazing, sweet, and funny Grandpa Ken passed away. :( It has been the two hardest weeks of my life. He was my last biological grandfather and all i have left for grandparents is my mom's mom Grandma Nancy. I have done everything I can to keep my busy so I don't dwell on it and end up crying everyday for the last two weeks. What really is going to be hard is we are not having his memorial until this upcoming summer at the family cabin, so technically I have 8-9 months before I am able to say my goodbyes. That is going to be one of the hardest things besides knowing that when I get married in 7 months he won't be there. So i'm just an emotional mess lately and it is no fun at all. 

Dear Grandpa Ken,

 You are truly missed and i'm glad you are reunited with Grandma Phyllis in heaven. Can Grandma and you please watch over me and guide me?

Love you always,

                  Your Granddaughter Brittany

Grandpa Ken

Left to Right: Dee, Grandpa Ken, and Grandma Phyllis

Left to Right: Grandpa Ken, my brother Tony, Dad, Me and Hemi

Grandma Phyllis and Grandpa Ken

Back: Auntie Gayle, Grandpa and Grandma. Front: Uncle Dave and Dad

Family Reunion a few years back

Engaged & Loving It!

May 9th, 2014 I officially got engaged to my best friend and love of my life Kyle. It is an exciting time right now, and i'm counting down the days till I officially become Mrs. Brittany Deneys in a year. We just took our engagement photos a couple weeks ago, now in 2-3 weeks I go for my wedding dress appointment, and after that let the planning/saving money begin. Who thought wedding planning could be so much fun but so expensive. :)

One Life!

Wow, it has been way too long since I have last written on here. Where did the time go? So much has happened. I moved to wisconsin to be closer to my friends and my boyfriend, went to college up here for a semester, lived with some roomies for the first time last year, my goddaughter was born, moved in with my man, my brother moved up to Minnesota from Wyoming, i lost 8 amazing people in 2013 and they will be greatly missed, among so many other things. There is just too many things to list to make up for the last two years.  I had my ups and I had my downs, and it made me a stronger and better person for all my struggles. I have realized who my true and best friends are, and it turns out I originally had 10 girlfriends and it went down to 4 girlfriends who are always there from me; out of my guy friends I originally had 6 and now it is down to 2 but im ok with this. They are always there for me and that is all that matters. My best friend and her family up here became my family which is nice when my family is in Minnesota and Kyle's are in Green Bay, Wisconsin. It's nice that if I just need my other mom to talk to I can go to her whenever and just have a girl day whenever needed. My life is amazing the way it has turned out and I wouldn't change it for the world. Hope everyone is doing ok.

~MBB

"Catch My Breathe"

           I hope everyone had a lovely christmas. I know I did spending it with Kyle's family in Pulaski, Wisconsin. We had all of Kyle's dad's side of the family over. I helped Kyle's mom and sister make cookies and some of the food. We had lots of fun and laughter. It was exactly what I needed for relaxing after these very, very, very stressful last few weeks. I just needed to take a deep breathe, relax and enjoy the joys of life. An example of this would be: when Kyle and I on Christmas Day took his two youngest cousins Kara & Cody out to the barn to see/pet the horses and the kittens. The smiles and excitement on their faces was priceless. They even got to feed the horses a treat and they were asking lots of questions on the animals. Watching Kyle interact with them and seeing them so excited was a very precious site for me. And I am so glad that I could make their day and take them away from the boring adult talk/games that were going on at that time. Below are some of the pics from this Christmas week so far.
          In exactly 11 days it will be this chica's 22nd birthday. God how time flies by and im starting to feel old. Don't know exactly what I am going to do for my birthday yet but I know i defiantly want to spend it with the people I love the most :)

         

Bennie & The Jets

Life Is Interesting!!!

        I feel so lost with all the things coming at me. Where to begin...from May to October I had 5 people pass on. Three of them family members, one of them was Kyle's amazing grandmother, and one was a close family friend. Plus on top of that I have been job searching for four months and nothing so far. It is majorly discouraging among freaking out on how to pay all my bills, keep a roof over my head and have food to eat. Don't get me wrong I have some joys in the mix which are amazing to have.  These joys are what keep me going, you know? These joys are just the simplest things in life like: Kyle being supportive and there for me, going to be a godmother for the first time to a beautiful baby girl who is going to be born into this world in just a little more than a month, excited to spend Christmas with Kyle's side of the family,and having three beautiful and awesome friends who are always there for me and know how to make me laugh and smile no matter what the situation is.

       The part that irks me though is people who I thought were my friends don't understand what Im going through and saying crap to me. They don't get how I am having a hard time joking around and being happy go lucky. Seriously I don't expect you to know how i'm feeling or to walk in my shoes but at least have consideration. It hurts knowing they are saying and doing this stuff, and i'm ready to walk away. Im done dealing with people's drama, i'm gonna start focusing on me and dealing with what I am going through. I am learning that people aren't always going to be there for you, you have to take care of yourself and your family. Down below are pictures of my joys in life right now. The first three are of my best friends and me, and then the last one is a picture of Kyle and I from this thanksgiving. If my goddaughter Zoey was born yet Id have a pic of her up here too :)

Whit and Me

Shelbs and Me

Tiff and Me

Kyle & Me

"Love Your Life"

     Kyle and I are really good...on October 4th we will be hitting our year and a half mark. Man how the times have flown by majorly. I wouldn't have it any other way. He is the best thing to happen to me, and every day he teaches me to enjoy life, find the best of every day, follow my dreams, and love life; as well as many other things. :) It was so hard being away from him all summer. I only got to see him three times and each time it was getting harder and harder saying goodbye. Now it is adjusting being in the same town and seeing each other all the time (which i love majorly...it is so great to see his face every day and get a nice needed hug & kiss, back-rub or support when I need it).He has defiantly been my support system. I have had a very hard & emotional summer and it was so nice to have him there every step of the way. I had four deaths, some fam issues, losing friendships and tryin to figure out life majorly. I don't know what id do without him...it is so nice to have him just hold me, tell me everything is going to be okay and just let me have a nice cry. Im pretty sure if Kyle wasn't there id still be a big blob of mess all over the floor not wanting to do anything. I don't know about you but a Big Brittany Blob on the floor doesn't sound good to me lol. 

    These pictures are from Kyle's Family Trip. I always look forward to this trip every year. This year was my second year on it, and this year Kyle's siblings were able to bring their other halfs too so it was even more fun. I hope you enjoy looking at the photos. ~ Mbb

Right to Left: Kyle's Sister Tamara and her Bf Luke, Kyle's Brother Tony and his girlfriend Chantel, Kyle & Me

Silly Faces

Cute picture of us :)

Picture of Kyle holding me in the water

Porch Swing Photo

Us again

Hey sorry that i havent written on here in months!!!! Life is in major fast forward right. Finishing up my first semester at UW-Stout, got a job for summer, going to have my own apartment for the summer, growing up and figuring out life. I promise i'll write more soon!

~MBB